Wow, what a year it's been! Today, I am truly thankful at God's amazing ability to turn things around.
This year started off rocky, very rocky. A friend was shot and killed in the shootings in Tucson and I was a wreck - mentally, spiritually, and definitely emotionally! And then a few other things happened (life) which compounded to make it all so horrible! And, while March and the beginning of April held 2 weddings for 4 very dear friends of mine, the month was tough and culminated in me being home for 5 days in a row, 3 of those days in pain, severely dehydrated and completely exhausted, puffing on an inhaler.
It's now a couple weeks later and so much has changed. I still get teary eyed thinking about Gabe, but the mere thought doesn't debilitate me for hours or derail my day. Instead I remember what he was all about and decide to enjoy the life I have now and do my best to love others and keep a positive attitude. Instead of jam-packing my schedule every day, I'm allowing more margin before and after events to take my time and relax a little. I'm not doing something every night of the week and I'm reading more.
Instead of putting off eating or exercising, I've remembered a healthy Katherine can be a blessing to others, so I've been diligent to work out and actually eat regularly. I still need to excel in the sleep category though...something just happens to me at 9pm and I get a surge of energy...what to do?? Hmm any suggestions??
My incredible, generous roommate Ashley got married April 1st, and for a while there I wasn't sure where I would live, but God had a plan! I'm now living with two dear, fun friends. There is so much laughter and joy in the house and various conversations that could last all night...sometimes they do! (Another reason why I'm not sleeping! Ha!)
Most of all, I'm thankful for the change in my time with God. When the heartbreaking events of January happened, my heart was overwhelmed. I prayed, cried and worshipped God, but there was so much pain, my time with Him was just to get me through. Now there is life again, and joy and laughter - a lightness of spirit.
So, I'm writing this to encourage you and to encourage myself. In those dark, hard times, in pain, in sickness, in despair - lean on God. There is no magical formula to make it all go away, but He will bring comfort and peace....and one day, He will turn it all around!
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
Sicky Poo
Ah, being sick...so many thoughts.
As I lie here on the couch about to force myself to do a nasal rinse, gargle and a few other things the doctor prescribed (including drinking water...so much water) and then eat some soup, I am deciding to be thankful for this time.
March was a busy month, an insane month. I knew going into it. I would open my planner and cringe, 2 beautiful weddings, searching for and then moving to a new apartment, heavy work schedule, showers, birthdays, church and extra church events, previous obligations, errands...life. I kept telling myself "just make it through this month. You can rest in April." Well, apparently my body decided we'd make good on that. The end of the month culminated in a rather wonderful wedding of two of my dear friends. Also included at the end of the month was food poisoning, dehydration, too much sun, dehydration, exhaustion, voice disappearing and I hurt my back moving the last of my stuff to the new apartment and did I mention dehydration?
My doctor was so kind to me yesterday and gave me a list of to dos and a prescription. My favorite part was him telling me I have to rest, because if my body doesn't get some rest I'm not going to get better. I think my words to him were "easier said than done." But shortly after that I was at Target picking up my 'get well' items. I was extremely tired and pushing the hand cart on the floor with my feet because I couldn't carry it. I realized I had to get some rest and I cannot allow myself to ever get here again. Ever.
So over the next few days I'm going to develop clear boundaries for myself for what I can and cannot do. Saying no more often may become the norm, as well as getting to bed earlier. And the past few days I've been spending so much time with God -- reading the Bible, praying, being still and listening -- it's replenishing and necessary for each day. I will continue to do this. It's time I won't budge on, time I look forward to and time I'm thankful for.
As I lie here on the couch about to force myself to do a nasal rinse, gargle and a few other things the doctor prescribed (including drinking water...so much water) and then eat some soup, I am deciding to be thankful for this time.
March was a busy month, an insane month. I knew going into it. I would open my planner and cringe, 2 beautiful weddings, searching for and then moving to a new apartment, heavy work schedule, showers, birthdays, church and extra church events, previous obligations, errands...life. I kept telling myself "just make it through this month. You can rest in April." Well, apparently my body decided we'd make good on that. The end of the month culminated in a rather wonderful wedding of two of my dear friends. Also included at the end of the month was food poisoning, dehydration, too much sun, dehydration, exhaustion, voice disappearing and I hurt my back moving the last of my stuff to the new apartment and did I mention dehydration?
My doctor was so kind to me yesterday and gave me a list of to dos and a prescription. My favorite part was him telling me I have to rest, because if my body doesn't get some rest I'm not going to get better. I think my words to him were "easier said than done." But shortly after that I was at Target picking up my 'get well' items. I was extremely tired and pushing the hand cart on the floor with my feet because I couldn't carry it. I realized I had to get some rest and I cannot allow myself to ever get here again. Ever.
So over the next few days I'm going to develop clear boundaries for myself for what I can and cannot do. Saying no more often may become the norm, as well as getting to bed earlier. And the past few days I've been spending so much time with God -- reading the Bible, praying, being still and listening -- it's replenishing and necessary for each day. I will continue to do this. It's time I won't budge on, time I look forward to and time I'm thankful for.
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